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无须再拉出一个比较对象，好让我感到此刻环境的美好。每一次，当我走在这座小城的主街道上时，我总是感到舒适惬意。抬头即可见晴朗天，眼角是繁茂的香樟和梧桐，临街开满了门面不大却颇有生气的店铺，双目所及是平静温和的整洁、有序与生机。走至江边，我会一次又一次爱上那一簇簇向上生长、明朗活泼的芦苇，微微倾向一边，仿佛随了向阳花的喜好——它们真的适合出现在江岸。晚霞印在漾起微波的江面上，对岸是模糊了轮廓的连绵青山，走的是秀气小巧风。我把座椅转身，对江而坐，在拿起手机做些什么之前，我的视线慢慢环视，从右侧水榭的檐铃看向左侧那条繁忙闪亮的江上大桥。

曾经的曾经，这些亦被我视为理所当然。但有了一些见识后，我开始发自内心地感谢自己生活于此。在某个菲律宾贫民窟里，一位饱经风霜的妇女这样对记者说：生活在这里，从每个方向看出去，都很难看到一点点美丽。我认同她的看法，除了天空，那个满是脏污的生活区确实是对人五官的极大挑战：人的粪便随处都是，下脚走路都需要勇气，水是墨黑的，且漂满垃圾。她的话使我蹙起了眉头，意识到清爽整洁对这世界的一些人而言实属珍贵，而此刻的我已然身处这样的环境。自然地，我对身处的这个城市有了发自内心的欣赏，这种欣赏开始变成日常的存在。

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What? ! Finally I looked at the date of the writing, which was five months ago, and so, the possibility of my reading the next chapter was miserably low. I regretted not noticing the date and now I was hung at the cliff, desperately wanting to know what would happen to them.

As I was walking outdoors at the same day, I remembered one important thing, which was: Actually I knew some of the scenes I would love to see happening to them. Some of my preferences were easy to figure out and my imagination could already picture certain scenarios about them which would definitely please myself. I actually don't need to wait for the feeding from the outside though it's always so easy and quick to read or watch already present works others have presented. Follwing this train of thought, I quickly created several amazingly-pleasing-to-myself scenes in my mind's eye about two of my favorite characters. I became the director and I was the scriptwriter selfishly writing storyline that fully satisfied myself. So, naturally the disappointment about that fan fiction dissipated.

Sometimes, being frank about what I truly want/desire/prefer is not that easy, but it's so worthwhile to at least let myself be honest with them. So many things we think we don't like and would never like actually could be pleasing if our present conditions are different. But when we don't believe in the change of these conditions, all of the following new possibilities, new desires and preferences cannot be shown to us clearly, or more accurately said, cannot be acknowledged by us.

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生命就是这么有趣，今天的你不知道明天会有什么新的人事物吸引你。

由封神榜，更确切地说由《山河之影》的李东方认识了吉乌此沙，继而发现这位彝族演员对自己的身份很自豪，经常会用彝语唱歌，还会向观众推荐彝族语诗集。

突然，我就对少数民族文化产生了兴趣。我先看了和之梦关于大凉山的纪录片，又看了一点台湾《大陆寻奇》节目对彝族的介绍。我的兴趣继续拓展，延伸至少数民族文化的历史发展，结束一集《蒙古女王》后，我找到了更符合需求的《中国通史》，开始借助影音资料对辽朝、西夏、金国和蒙元文化有所了解。

能在“我所感兴趣的事：”列表中不断添加新的内容是件幸福的事，它们可以保证我在接下来的日子里过得不无聊，而是比较有趣。

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Purposefully Activate the Feeling of Happiness:

I am happy because:

I am happy because I naturally woke up with a fresh mind at 5 am. I was eager to begin my day before my computer. I took sips of drinking water, quieting my mind and then deiberately searching blessings to put on my list of appreciation. Counting blessings at the start of the day paves for me a much better feeling journey. As my fingers moved quickly on the keyboard, meaningful words poured out upon the wps document. I enjoyed the focused process of writing appreciation lists.

I am happy because I had discoverd a funny variety show featuring the movie Creation of the Gods. I laughed out loud when watching some parts, and so I kept going back to them to have a good laugh. I so admire the robust spirits those trainees owned during their training sessions. Different personalities came together and then comedies began. Hou Wenyuan contributed at least half to those hilarious scenes. His confidence is on another level.

I am happy because I collect new ways to keep my mind clear, fresh and interested. I don't need to depend upon outside objects to do so, because I can think thoughts, create motion pictures in my mind's eye to enhance the clear state of my mind. I am good at imagining or visualizing or scripting interesting scenes just for the pleasure they bring to me.

I am happy because I live in a wonderful, safe, beautiful, alive, neat, resourceful, convnient city/community/house. I like the living conditions here. I like taking long evening walks outdoors. I like enjoying my time in the lovely cafe. I like lying on the bed, letting my relaxed body resonating with the musical rhythem. I get to savor food and drinks every day. I have access to unlimitd Internet resources indoors and outdoors. I am supported by environments with pleasing sounds or quietness.

I am happy because I am healthy. My body works extremely well for me. My body can easily let go of any medication in positive ways and it did. Every part of my body, including every organ, keeps robust and energetic. I get to do all kinds of moves with my flexible and firm body. I breathe easily. I see, hear and speak clearly. My teeth cut, bite, chew and grind food efficiently for me. My throat is wide enough to let all food and drinks smoothly in. My heart automatically beats and pumps.

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一望无际的草原，一群纵马驰骋的小男孩小女孩，蒙古包旁，挺着孕肚的妇女正在洗着什么，羊圈里传出一阵高过一阵的咩叫。

小小少年晒红的脸上映着烦恼，即便骑着爱驹也不能使之消散。马身上甚至没有马鞍，多么单纯原始的骑行。不知是幸还是不幸，只有8岁的他已经有了梦想，他想成为驯马师兼赛马师，他想骑着他的板栗参加今年的那达慕。可惜，父亲不同意，父亲曾是远近闻名的赛马师，但不知何故，他很早就收起了马汗刮子，也收起了自己的梦想。

无独有偶，我听到了另一个故事。讲述者说他很小就有两个确定的梦想，一是找到真爱，另一个是成为职业的冰球运动员。在18岁前的那场重要比赛中，他表现得如此优异，所有人都说球队会和他签约，结果教练却告诉他，名额已经给了另一名经验更丰富的外来球员。他失望至极，又考虑到18岁是冰球运动员重要的关卡，此后他的身体状况将会走下坡路，严重影响他的比赛发挥。于是，他转换了人生赛道，不再打冰球。

但是，梦想真的消失了吗？对他，梦想并未消失，而是成为刺痛的存在，当他无意中瞥到电视上的冰球比赛时，当他听到周围的人在谈论冰球时，当许久未见的故人问他是否还在打冰球时，他感觉到深深的痛，这种痛让他怀疑自己当年是否做了错误的决定，十几年后的如今，自己又该何去何从？

显然，置之不理早就行不通了，否则就不会心痛。要不就一直心痛下去；要不就重拾梦想，让梦想照亮一把未来，再拼博一番，至少使余生少一些后悔与遗憾。然而，要拖着每况愈下的身体状况去和那些青春少年对抗吗？

似乎……哪里有些不对？究竟是谁说，18岁是分水岭的？难道没有球员的体能和敏捷度是在18岁后逐日提升的？究竟什么是真的？过了18，身体就不能变得更强壮了吗？是时候审视一些所谓的真相了，一些过时而无益的信念。

几年后，梦想成真，他重新成为了一名冰球运动员。

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Appreciation and Love and Find Them Even If It Is Hard

She has her own opinions of almost everything. When she makes her mind,  no one can change her. Stubborn, persistent, she is true to herself no matter what. She doesn't blame any other for what happens in her life because a long time ago, she already chose to take full responsibility for every bit of her life. Complaint rarely comes out of her mouth; complaining is a waste of time to her.

Most of the time, she is nice, kind, friendly, allowing and loving. She values harmony among people. She is willing to help and support oftentimes. And she is not hesitate to say no to requirements or suggestions that don't feel good to her. She clearly shows her attitude by repeatedly saying "no" if that is needed. She likes discovering, acknowledging and memorizing beauty of everyone in her family. She can easily find their positive aspects and shining spots, which leads to strong appreciation in her heart.

She is a passionate liver of her life. She continually gets new things to excite her mind. She is open to all kinds of interesting facts of this world. She likes learning new knowledge, information and data about subjects that attract her attention. She is eager to get up early in the morning, happily jumping into the detail of her life. She feels blessed by so many existences on the planet earth--music, interesting stories, soothing natural scenes, mutual respect and love among people, lovely firefighters with golden hearts, etc.

She likes being solution oriented. As she deliberately relaxes, calms down, solution always comes more quickly. She has been cultivating the attitude of unconditional lightheareted, because it's both practically beneficial and extremely cool. She likes the laid-backness one can demonstrate in difficult situations which lets her know this is something she wants for herself.

She rarely feels lonely. She enjoys her solitude while also liking hanging around with people in a lighthearted mood. She knows how to make her life as fulfilling as she can. This way, she often feels blessed by so many wonderful activities which bring her pleasure on a daily basis, instead of feeling like a victim to life.

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Things are working out for me.

Again, I wake up naturally early this morning. I am clear-minded, fully refreshed and ready to start my day. I like having more clear-minded daytime to do what I like. I know the importance of building a good feeling start of the day, so I sit in front of my computer, quieting my mind, and begin to purposefully list things that go well for me. The first thing coming to my mind is my wellness/health and wonderful bodily conditions. I appreciate every part of my body which is working so well for me day and night. I am healthy. I am clear-minded, flexible, robust and energetic. I have abundant mental and physical energy to enjoy my time. I see clearly, hear clearly, speak clearly, move freely, walk fast and own extremely flexible hands and fingers.

I live in a wonderful house within a wonderful community within a wonderful city. This city is beautiful, alive, clean, orderly, safe, resourceful and convenient. I feel totally satisfied with where I am, with these amazing physical spaces and environments. The government diligently manages all kinds of aspects of this city. Garbage cans are cleaned up at 4 or 5 am. Roads are watered and swept every day. We have access to electricity, cleaning water, natural gas, and the Internet 24/7. I walk safely outdoors in the evening. I am welcomed by the lovely cafe during the daytime. I lie on the big bed in my room, gently moving my body to the musical rhythm...

I am interested in more and more things and I become more passionate about creating and living my life. As a music lover, I am still in love with beautiful songs every day and I attract new heart-touching music on and on. I laugh easily when watching funny contents online. I feel strong resonance. I live in strong appreciation and love. I feel joy in the laughter. I get inspired to think new thoughts and carry out new actitivities. I appreciate everyone related to these creations, from the music app staff, composers, lyricists, and singers to the director and actors of the movie Creation of the Gods.

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People in my life

My brother just took my nephew out for fun at the beach. He is a responsible and loving father, trying his best to balance study/work and play. When he makes a decision, he often holds onto it persistently, not negatively influenced by others' opinions. Good for him. By being so, he also offered precious opportunities for other people to be independent and unconditional.

Girls in the cafe open the door in time, clean up the whole space and make me a cup of fresh iced American coffee. I appreciate their effort to create this bright, comfy, neat, convenient space for me.

From time to time, I watch videos featuring Cisha. Today, he mentioned one of his favorite singers--Liang Bo. As a music lover, I was happy to discover more musicians and immediately I found a beautiful song sung by this talented singer. I already downloaded this song to loop it.

My parents are supportive of each other. They have great harmony with each other, chatting lightheartedly with each other and working together to fulfill certain tasks. They share some interests and have meaningful conversations to carry out every day.

My grandma follows her own life path and her life offers me greater clarity of what kind of life I want to live. I get to form clearer vision about my future. While at the same time, I am offered a precious opportunity to be more allowing and patient and unconditional.

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睁开眼睛，看手机，凌晨两点多，睡了大概一个半小时，已经完全清醒，不想睡了。台式电脑没有关，本就打算中途会醒，因为近期不需要那么多夜间睡眠。

戴好耳机，打开心动模式，一边听歌一边思考事情，厘清一些问题。不久前才发现网易云的漫游模式和心动模式，漫游模式特别适合快走时听，也不知道什么缘故；室内时比较喜欢心动模式，还能因此找到不少好听的新歌点赞收藏起来。

形容音乐时，我最常用的词不是“好听”，而是“美”。美实在有太多种，除了令人心旷神怡的美，散发着治愈感的美，沉鱼落雁式的美外，也有暗黑美，暴力美，战损美，等等，等等。画面，音乐，皆是。当美的画面和美的音乐完美匹配时，观者听者的快乐就会倍升，由衷的赞叹和纯粹的欣赏充溢心房，由作品延申至作者。

我喜欢的美很容易在网络世界中找到。数不尽的网友自制自传作品因为源自于爱，往往激起无限创意，以及无穷的耐心。说耐心其实不太对，更确切地说，这应该是一种精雕细琢的乐趣——一帧一帧选图，调色，改字体，思考适合的背景音乐及旁白，期待灵感的到来……

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It is a good opportunity for me to practice unconditional steadiness. I choose to walk my unique path regardless of what any other says. I like taking full responsibility for my life. I like making my OWN decision and fully accepting whatever comes from it. Nothing serious is going on in my life; I am clear about this.

I can always get up and walk my own path at any moment wherever I am. I choose to belittle things that previously might seem big or serious to me. On and on, I keep on getting back to the track that pleases to me. I am indeed loved, supported, guided and protected. On every life subject, there are unlimited alternatives for me, and so I never need to depend upon one specific source.

I know what kind of being I want to become. I like being stable, unconditional, persistent and stubborn. I like stubbornly holding onto my visoin, my thoughts, and my desires, no matter what people around me are saying. Actually, I did quite well though sometimes I got into fight with them. At least, I wouldn't give up my desires or dreams just because of worrying about their disapprovals. I learn to, as much as I can, ignore their speeches while focusing upon what I like in my mind's eye, not quarrelling with them on the surface. This really saves me a lot of precious time and energy.

The best state of being regarding relationships is being in love. However, when I feel guarded, worrying about negative perspectives of them, it's often not the time for me to reach for this state. Too hard. Too late for now. Later gator. There will be a time to do that.

I choose to feel as good as I can, using any reason, because I believe this is beneficial to me on all fronts of my life. I like counting my blessings: My heart resonates and gets touched by beautiful songs. My body moves accordingly to the rhythm. I am put into the state of strong appreciation of the beauty of sounds. My mind just followed the story of a cute little Mongol boy pursuing his dream of being a horseman in the grassland. He was so sure of his dream. He was so cool riding his beloved horse in the wind. I could feel the great satisfaction and excitement riding the horse as a master brought to him. What a journey! If I get the chance, I also want to discover the fun of riding a horse freely. I like being in the state of appreciation. Recently, I have been appreciating a lot of actors and comedians. I feel blessed by knowing them and enjoying their existence and creations. I feel joy perceiving those attractive subtleties in professionals' skills, in their acting, in their dancing, in their wording, etc. What feasts my mind has been savoring these days! ...

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一不小心把咖啡洒在了笔记本键盘上，一个键按出了两三个字母，这我倒是没想到，本来以为这键盘防水的呢。虽然有备用的笔记本，我还是想用它，毕竟大多数资料、影音文件和网络设置都在它上面呢。联系了京东客服，说是需要寄回去换键盘，真够麻烦的！

电子产品遇到问题，绝大多数时候是我自己解决的，有些时候是它们自己恢复的，最后才会求助于维修机构。虽有些烦躁，但我很清楚自己的情绪状态会影响到生活的方方面面，为此而烦恼划不来。我很快决定放下担心，第二天再考虑具体怎么处理；怀抱一些期待，我还是把笔记本电脑充分展开，倒放出水晾干。重要的东西还是该有备份，很快我就执行了Plan B，拿出另一台笔记本电脑使用起来，此时纠结情绪基本跑光了。

第二天，有趣的事发生了，倒置晾晒后的键盘康复了，所有功能一切正常。哈！这就是我想要的。最好呢，所有电子产品所有时间都为我正常工作；但如果出了问题，像这样自动恢复的情况，我也很乐于接受。

拟人来说，我的电子产品真的是我真诚努力至极的伴侣，毫无怨言为我工作不说，还卯足了劲来解决由我使用不当造成的问题，太……贴心了！而且它们还那么优秀，轻巧便携，屏幕尺寸舒适，为我源源不断输送动人的影像、声音和每日精神食粮，协助我将心中所想转化为文字，引导我去见识这广袤世界的新奇与有趣，满足我的影视作品保存和欣赏癖，还把各种创造工具双手奉上……

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My Abundance:

The snacks I wanted to eat just offered me a satisfying discount, and the bank card also gave me a discount, so I got these snacks with much cheaper prices. This, of course, belongs to my abundance. There are lots of similar examples like this in my daily life.

I am healthy. I feel comfortable from head to toe. I am clear-minded, flexible and energetic. I have abundant mental and physical energy so much so that I don't need much night sleep. I know how to make the best of night sleep and daytime naps to keep my mind replenished. Every part of my body works extremely well for me. I see, hear and speak clearly. I move freely. I walk fast. I do all kinds of things through my flexible, versatile hands and fingers.

I have abundant free time to do what I like. I am passionate about life. I am eager about my life. There are so many things I am interested in. Every day, new things come up and attract my attention. There are a long long list of things which I am eager to do, calling me to get up early in the morining.

I have access to unlimited beautiful songs. Heart touching music. Resonating songs that move my body naturally. I appreciate netease music app which offers me infinite high quality songs all over the world. Unlimited interesting stories of abundant genres shower upon me, exciting my mind and igniting my imagination. I can easily search and find something to watch on iqiyi, mgtv, youku and tencent with the vips I own.

I live in a beautiful, neat, robust, safe, convnient city where most of my family members live. I feel totally satisfied with where I am. I enjoy my indoor spaces and outdoor spaces. I mainly stay in bright, comfy, convenient, and supportive physical environments. They work so well that I can easily focus upon subjects I choose, not needing to worry about other stuff.

We, members of this family, are quite independent most of the time. We are busy doing our own things, not asking others to fulfill our needs or desires. We have our own hobbies and spend time on them to boost our spirit every day. My mom likes singing, making snacks and watching poker games. My brother persistently follows his unique business path as a self-employer. From time to time, we get together and eat meals in a lighthearted mood. We care about each other. We are supportive of each other, while respecting each other's privacy.

Every day, I enjoy molding my thoughts to build new belief system that is more beneficial. I become more stable, independent, self-loving, and persistent in pursing what's meaningful to me. I get clearer about what I truly like and desire. I respect my own preferences. I care much less about what others think of me. What freedom!

I can easily get happy. I laugh easily. There are a lot of people and their behaviors or antics making me laugh loudly. I grin ear to ear because of those creative fans who have such wild and hilarious imagination. I like watching their creations on bilibili. I appreciate them immensely.

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温柔明朗的芦苇自然生长，高出了栏杆，探出头来打量世界的另一侧。渔船靠岸，渔夫忙着补网，做饭，售卖。天还没黑，仍有人在水中游泳，岸边洗衣；不出一个小时，群舞将会在台阶上方的小广场上展开。一只特立独行的江鸥惬意地立于浮木上，随波逐流，懒散，惬意。轻风拂面，带走最后一丝焦躁。终于能够平静地观察自己的呼吸，耐心地感受身体的紧张与松弛，放下匆忙，放下不满。慢就是快，如此，我才能更快地步入清醒与有力。

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Qini Hajvd--Kevin

是熟悉的曲调，甚至是有些熟悉的语言，真的是蒙语吗，还是俄语。

单曲循环之，脑海里勾勒出的，是一个在寂静夜晚，缓缓独行的背影，自成看似孤独却毫无怨言的世界。与欢快无关，却美，有其无与伦比的氛围和吸引力，所以迟迟无法点击下一曲，一曲可以立刻改变整个空气的快乐之歌--阳光开朗大男孩。

搞笑的人，好玩的场景，显然与这首歌不匹配，他们的世界在别处，在更热闹的所在，他们可以十分自然地出现在下一曲中，展现阳光，释放开朗，但不是在这儿。

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有一个阶段，我对故事充满了兴趣，不是那种清新治愈型的故事，而是剧情比较饱满转折较多的那种。这个渴望，实现起来相当容易，有电脑有影音频道vip就行了；与几个月前把电视剧当成打发时间的无聊对象不同，此时的我，在观剧时已会产生较多的情绪反应，包括强烈的欣赏——可以是欣赏剧集营造的诡异氛围，演员的演技，剧情发展的引人入胜，等等。

一个月前，姑姑们问我要不要和她们去云南玩，我立刻说不，目前实在对旅游没有兴趣，不久前在横店的经历已经告诉我，我真的宁肯宅在家沉浸式观剧，结果在那次旅行中，最充实的时刻竟然是在晚上的旅馆里：我拿出平板，用手机设置热点，然后坐在书桌前津津有味地追起了最新出的《长月烬明》。

过去我不喜欢去电影院，去过几次，也是陪着朋友去的。毕竟，电影院里看故事不像在家观剧，想暂停就暂停，想跳过就跳过，还可以随心所欲调整音量，不必经受强烈视听效果的负面刺激——有时候震得我脑仁疼。今年，情况确实有些特殊，在对封神知之甚少的情况下，我依旧有了强烈的新渴望，想在大荧幕上看这部电影，于是我就去了。看完有个强烈的感觉，看一遍实在太过匆忙，根本来不及照顾细节。虽然没有第二刷，但它在爱奇艺云影院上线后，我立刻买了线上票，这次终于能看得过瘾了，可以按照自己的喜好来调节速度、音量和清晰度，可以随时暂停和重复播放一些片段，喜欢的话还可以各种截屏，这是影院看故事做不到的。

封神的幕后故事让这部电影耐看，因为提供了更多观影的视角，我的注意力可以从人物对话中转移到布景上，我可能突然就观察起了皇后戴的项链上，或者因为杨戬和哪吒的打斗片段想起了两个演员此沙和武亚凡的搞笑可爱训练日常……

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在《封神训练营》中常听到此沙在哼歌，唱的大多是彝族的歌曲。

爱屋及乌，突然，我就对少数民族的文化产生了兴趣。对的，活了这么多年，除了小时候对新疆维尔族文化有过一些好奇外，我对此真的知之甚少。

于是，我就去找了些歌，用少数民族语言唱的歌，不是带有少数民族风情的普通话歌，尽管其中也有不少经典，比如腾格尔的《天堂》。找到了杭盖乐队，他们的歌曲中的确带有草原的辽阔奔放气息，一些野性与豪迈，沉浸式聆听，可带人进入独特的意境中。

我听歌很杂，也很包容，感受一番草原气息后，依旧可以无缝衔接至细腔古风歌，或者抖音上流行的一些百搭神曲，如不问ciaga。

有音乐相伴，何其幸福！

网易云喜欢歌单：

不问ciaga指尖笑版，

Nijamena(Remix版)，

那一刻心动（任子墨），

风夜行（黄钧泽），

Sold Out--Jonathan/Hawk ，

佳人（鬼卞），

We down we go--Kaleo，

不潮不用花钱（林俊杰），

Sweatshirt--Patrick/EJAEAN,

How can I be sure--Anomie Belle，

Another war--黄玮昕，

Thestar--音阙诗听/李佳思，

Seduction--Paul Velchev，

The Irishman--Paul Velchev，

Magnolia--Nyah Grace，

。。。。。。

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对声音依旧敏感，有意识创造愉悦的音声环境，依旧是件重要的事。

我极少外放，无论是看影视剧，还是听歌，我都戴耳机。我脖子上挂着蓝牙耳机，出门在外，当周围有人用手机大声放着什么时，我就可以方便地戴上它，换上自己喜欢的声音。

当那些声音又大声又刺耳时，我一般会采取Plan B。其实很简单，确定一个自己的注意力中心，然后不断地将自己的注意力投注在上面，一遍一遍将向外脱轨的它重新拉回到这个中心点上来，一段时间之后，你的心稳定下来，你不再关心周围的声音，也就不会因此而心生埋怨。甚至，你还可能感谢对方给了你宝贵的机会，用于训练你在嘈杂环境中的专注力。

你可以试图去理解一些你曾经无法理解的行为，这可能会减少你的烦躁。有些人不戴耳机，是因为他们相信戴耳机对他们的耳朵有害，戴久了甚至会耳聋。有些人选择高音量，是因为他们的听力已经退化，他们需要那么高的音量，否则他们听不见。无论你多么希望人们在公众场合考虑你的感受，照顾你的偏好，你还是会发现这是多么不自由、不现实的诉求，是沙滩上的城堡，顶多得到一时的稳定。

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今年，发现了倍速的妙处。

以前不觉得慢速的发言，今年则感觉慢得有些让人受不了。但这些演讲、这些音频的核心价值，它们带给我的启发其实一直在加深中，所以我依旧在聆听，只是把速度调整为了1.25倍，不久后固定为1.5倍，偶尔会增加至1.75倍或者2倍。很奇妙，很有趣，也可以说我的学习与吸收速度提升了，在同等时间内，现在的我能够学习与吸收更多的知识。

应该是有不少人有这方面的需求，所以目前的影音播放软件都带有倍速功能。一般看影视剧，我选择的是1.25倍，基本不会破坏故事想要营造的氛围，很实用。

当然有许多不能加速的情形。你可能会更从容，也可能会更上火。当我在手机上玩一款巨简单的游戏时，我意识到屏幕上的对象移动速度似乎比以前慢了许多，因此比起以前，现在的我可以不慌不忙地去处理它们，真实的原因应该是我更专注同时手速更快了。至于上火，则往往是因为在现实生活中的许多方面，你无法随心所欲去加速一些进程，比如，你不能改变对方的语速，你不能迅速让对方理解你的意思、学会你想教他的内容，于是新的课题又出现了，在某些方面，你就需要变得更有爱，更有耐心，并且有意识接受慢速的存在。然后，你可能自然想起，慢速永远存在，尤其在与新事物接触时，一开始总是慢的。

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看了眼手机，凌晨3点半，我很清醒。最近，我一直在告诉自己，当我对生命充满热情时，身心能量自然会更充足，所需的睡眠时间也会减少。

我打开灯，把笔记本电脑放在了床上小桌上。并没有计划要做什么，但很快看起了芒果台的《封神训练营》，这块内容与“笑”有关，当然我也可以选择与“美”有关的内容，两者带来的情绪反应有差异，但同属于正面情绪范畴。前者通常会让我笑得毫无形象。

有些时候，并不是内容本身特别引人发笑，而是身处其中的人，或者其他观察者，他们的反应和笑声特别有感染力，提升了整个场景的搞笑度。我很少看综艺节目，以前也并不认识秦孝贤，但在看过许多综艺小片段后，在我这里，他已经成为了一个很戳笑点的形象。他的表情经常是切题的生动好笑；他的笑声时长感人，响亮，具有带动他人一起笑的影响力。

为了和着弹幕看《一往无前的蓝》买了腾讯的会员，为了和着弹幕看《封神训练营》，买了芒果TV的会员。这下，爱优腾芒的会员都聚齐了。

通常而言，这些节目中让我大笑出声的片段，常常能让我再笑第二次、第三次，于是我会刻意记住它们出现的集数和时间点。《封神训练营》第一期里李昀锐出现的两个片段，我已经看了好多次，除了他本身好笑外，现场嘉宾的反应也极大地提升了其搞笑度。

至于美这一块，我主要在看粉丝给于适、此沙制作的一些粉丝MV，最令我印象深刻的还算是此沙李东方角色的高光剪辑。

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一阵窸窣声把我吵醒，睁开眼打开灯，我看到了异常难忘的一幕，有只老鼠从我旁边窜过去了，轻松轻松引起我一阵尖叫。

我换了个房间睡，心生后悔，后悔没有更好地建立与老鼠的关系，如今它在我这里成了恐怖分子，丰富的想象力让我害怕它真的会伤害到我的身体。曾经看过的相关报道和视频，如今在我脑海里栩栩如生。

但我知道的，显然比这更多。我越是害怕，越是想要找到它去除它，它出现的可能性就会更高，这只没了，还有下一只。哎！

老鼠有什么好怕的？家人的态度显然和我不一样，尽管那只老鼠可能依然潜伏在同一个房间里，家人依旧无惧地安心睡着了。因为在他的世界里，他比老鼠强大得多，且老鼠也不敢随便接近人，它们是怕人的。我们相信的不一样，态度就不一样，随之而来的行动就不一样。

为了今后着想，我还是选择改变自己的信念体系，提醒自己，那些报道中的场景发生在我身上的概率微乎其微，我不至于那么倒霉。再当然就是，反复训练自己的注意力，把聚焦点放在其他愉快轻松的对象上，因为在不同的心理状态下，看待事物的态度会发生变化，甚至有可能，你会压根就忘了不久前还在让你困扰的事。

就这样，几天后，我回归原来的房间，忙碌于做其他的事，很少再想起那些画面，而老鼠也确实没再打扰我。经此一事，我也更明白一点，平时少树“敌”，少树立令自己害怕的对象，这样大家更能相安无事。